Shade of My Belonging

Shade of my belonging:

my world is turning green, vibrant in a shade most deeply known - I feel this season as my own returning life, coming from the length of a long internal winter to something approaching my own rebirth of belonging to the land, of the earth itself. This than, is the shade of my belonging, 

of course I'm not removed from any season, I am part of the world in every sense and through every change that's offered. Winter's grip is the harshest, and for years I fought its barren hold. Spring would arrive in green relief, a new hope that would thrive all the way to Autumn. I felt the colors of the seasons, my body with its own moods, responding to their every shade. Green, in deepest hue, with each contrast of blue sky, a catch of yellow and lavender coming now to bloom - through it all I come alive, as vibrant to every color. 

yet seasons change, and watchful through their passage, I've come to see that I belong to the aspects that they offer in completely different ways, that winter was my denial and I suffered in its loss of vital color. I wished for the version of life that I loved most. It's different now, although my moods still darken to a harsh cold and barren landscape - what I see most often is space between branches, that there's room for new growth for another season, and that in the depth of cold life slumbers for a Spring's release. It's a necessary time for life's continuation. It's my time too...

another shade of my belonging. 

through Winter's realization - my world is turning green with new appreciation. 

~

Peace, Eric