All Theory

It's all theory:

past this point, right now - it's all theory, nothing proven in my life until it comes to my existence. This is freedom from belief and it offers an openness not often found for me before. It's not that I don't still hold beliefs or allow myself to explore other views on how to know the world. But everything's allowed to be questioned and even beliefs once cherished are given space in which to roam. I hold it all lightly, without need to grasp a single thought or idea for longer than a moments exploration. For me, this a freedom for curiosity to remain, a return each moment to not knowing anything for certain other than a wish explore further the mystery that life offers. It's freedom to know myself as I am without previous notions, without concepts given from a time before, and to just simply allow myself to be. 

Beyond this moment - it's all theory. I might speculate on what's to come but that's imagined from this instant on, this moment itself being only what it is right now. I stay here, allowing the world to reveal itself without my thoughts of interference. It's an easy meditation. To just abide as part of this unfolding, not needing to return because I'm always here, always now, even if my mind will wander. What's revealed are sensation, experiences of sight, sound, and touch against skin - the morning unfolds with light parting through clouds to find my window, birds in note to chorus of their own making, a first taste of coffee in a warm greeting to my lips. I truly know these experiences only now, in another moment they're memories of another morning. Tomorrow's morning is a theory of what might happen, of how sun light will find me, if birds will have another song to offer, or even if I'll have a wish for coffee. Nothing is certain. Yet I have this moment, and that it's already changing, shifting to a new understanding. It's not a theory. It's life - happening always, only, right now. 

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Peace,

Eric