To Tend To

To tend to:

there is a self to tend to, and even in a sense to make a measured effort to improve - it's not denying any aspect of my essential nature, from appearance as a functional person in the world, to my inherent formless capacity that allows it all. Everything belongs. 

this isn't about a frantic self-help approach of always being better, striving to perform at my greatest potential, nor any sort of comparison of my past self or too others. I've gone through that and have no reason to return. It's simply caring for myself as a person, to take measure of certain actions, bringing my attention to how I respond to myself and other people. It's seeing, and in this awareness to offer myself the relief of care, love, and compassion. Self empathy. I see this as the foundation of my nature, openness, and the capacity to serve for appearance in the world. It's formless/form, a true Heart Sutra of caring, and tending to what appears. 

It's simply love. 

of course this openness, my formless nature, is without bias, everything is allowed by virtue of its presence. It's unconditional. But I am also form, capacity somehow given function to know itself within the world. This isn't two things, or even two aspect of the one. It's just life, mysterious, and full of possibilities. That I am - is simply one of them. 

so in this formless/form I am unconditional, without bias too and allowing everything to be exactly as it will - and this includes my tendency to care, a wish to ease the pain of others, to love what feels broken in the world. Even as I know it all belongs. It's not a contradiction - it's my full, unrestrained, expression. I find myself aware of how I navigate through the world,of my response and reactions. With this attention comes a natural sense of ease, I relax, allowing myself to act in any given situation in the way that feels fitting. It's formless/form in action of life, without my sense of second guessing. If something appears that comes to my concern, it is mind to tend to. 

and I do. 

in whatever way the moment calls for.

~

Peace, Eric