Supposed to Be

Supposed to be: 

up to this point  - what I've learned through life and relationships is that it's all supposed to be a mess, never a settled thing, but that it's always in motion, offering us the best and only moment that's available right now. And this is far from being pessimistic, at least so for me, as I'm able to bring my deep sorrow to the surface, to show light on my every seeming mistake and heal them with a smile of recognition. Life's supposed to be this way. 

never truly a settled thing.

and that's the beauty and mystery of existence, that everything arises just perfectly so and then unfolds into the very instant, always to the unknown, even if we seem to guess correctly. It's remarkable that we get to love, to suffer loss, and see the transient nature of each experience. We're aware, witness to life and all that it offers, yet deeper still, we're participants through the very fiber of existence, we are the experience itself, never once removed from what's happening right now. 

even if we don't understand it, or if it holds no small amount of sorrow. 

life's supposed to hurt sometimes. 

but it's never less than beautiful.

and it's that transient nature, motion, that allows for love in its full expression, bringing change to every situation so that we can say; "yes, this too is love, even as my heart is broken." We're supposed to break, freeing us of rigid restraints that keep us locked in sure of any position. Mystery is the only option, reality, life through its motion of every possibility.

it's supposed to be this way.

~

Peace, Eric