what to do when there is no self found to harm, no one to condemn, nothing to confront in this alone understanding? Perhaps we could call this "non-dual" depression - or better still, simply allow it to arise without labels, without need to manipulate it to a different state of mind. There is no making light of this - some moments seem to overwhelm me, darkness applies itself through better parts of my days. Not always - but sometimes. I've found ways to cope, navigating this weight to bring on better days. I have also blamed myself when I couldn't bring around a lighter shade of mood. Here's the thing - I have no wisdom to apply in this situation, no truth to give myself to balm a deep set wound, there's no meditation or inquiry to relieve this. But there is the tenderness found within this very moment, a willingness to let things be, broken as is, without a quick fix offered. What I have found is that all this, wounds and all - belong to each moment of their appearance. They arise and stay at their own convenience, no say for my concern, or even well being. I can let them be, or acknowledge their appearance with the same care, the same love and understanding that I might offer to another. I can be my own dearest friend. Sometimes the best we can offer to another is just space to tend their deepest wounds. This is what I am - an offered space, allowing wounds to be. I know this space is given from my dearest friend.
Peace,
Eric
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