My Own Occurrence

My Own Occurrence:  

but I am aware, and this seems to be my one true claim, that I note my participation as life, an aspect of its flow with a sense of belonging to its current. Through this I find myself more fully involved than ever before, or perhaps more attentive to the details of certain moments. To be aware isn't abstract, or a one off affair of any special quality. It's daily life, happening with the realization of my own presence though each instant, unwavering, and without need of my assistance. What I find now is my own entanglement, that I'm not removed as some passive observer of events, but fully immersed in the qualities of experience. What occurs is my own occurrence. 

it's all pretty simple really, and it took no special teaching for this to be - to be aware is just noting my own existence, that I am alive, and more that I know this to be so. It's an easy awakening. This is the intimacy of belonging, knowing that each moment is here, now, on my own insistence of being, my experience of what's present is the experience of myself. 

so life continues - but I am aware and this does make some difference. Not in any magical way, but in an ease of wishing for things to be otherwise. It's the simplicity of being present. This isn't a call for mindfulness of every detail that occurs each moment. To be aware happens in the same manner as the heart beat, in the natural draw of breath and its release. I am relaxed through this all, my own easy breath of being aware, involved in the moment by virtue of being present. Nothing has changed from any other moment of my existence. But I'm aware - and grateful that I know it.

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Peace, Eric