Already Devoted

 

Already devoted:

to be as this, as I am now, already devoted to what appears and intimate in the sense that it all belongs. This is truly the path of unconditional love, and it's not one that's been chosen but simply the way reality seems to unfold to me. This devotion isn't one of worship, it's simply the recognition that life continues to surprise, and that events conspire beyond what I can know - whatever will appear gains my attention, it's accepted instantly in my hold even if I wish to protest it's arrival and length of stay. I have no real say in what's allowed, again that's life in its agenda of continuation, a flow of all possibilities. 

what I am is part of life's agenda, a somehow possibility that appeared and found itself aware. Everything comes to awareness, regardless of my want or demands. To be devoted to life is to accept it all as it arrives, and this too may include a wish for things to be otherwise, and even action taken to make so. What appears belongs. Of course I don't always like this, and will find myself in a losing argument with how things are. Reality always wins. 

to be as this, as I am now, is to be aware. Awareness is without bias, it's unconditional by very nature and doesn't seek to measure what belongs and how long things may stay. It just accepts, and accepts, and always accepts more. It's neither satisfied nor aggrieved by what appears. I am aware, and more I am aware of my own appearance here, life given in individual aspect, distinct, yet also belonging fully to the flow. It's a unique position to find myself, at once allowing and questioning as well. This is how life is, for me and from my perspective. I won't argue with another's truth and hold my own extremely lightly. In an instant reality might prove me wrong. My devotion stays fluid, and only reflects a momentary occurring, motion - I am  devoted to how things are, now, and how will be sometime later, whatever comes to this awareness. 

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Peace, Eric