I miss my mother. More so I miss the possibilities that were robbed from her by Alzheimer's. I was waiting in line today at a grocery store behind an elderly women who was slowly, very slowly counting change with shaking hands. She reminded me very much of my mother - the senior mother I might have had if not for a terrible disease. My mother and father, by all rights should have enjoyed their senior years together - they worked hard, provided a comfortable life for their family and were always there for each other and their children. They should have traveled, visited family, garden and simply enjoyed each others company. Instead my father nursed my mother through a steep decline eveen as he suffered through his own health concerns. I was honored to help them both. Sometimes it seems that life isn't fair and maybe it isn't. I'm facing divorce in a matter of days in a marriage I fought hard to save. Letting go is hard and the things we cherich that will one day leave are endless. Maybe life isn't fair - but it's life and we endure. And often, sometimes very often - we find reason to smile. That's life too. So this long, rambling post comes to an end without a conclusion. Simply do your best. And look for reasons to smile.
Peace,
Eric
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Dearest Eric, I can understand you so much, I keep your father in my prayer for he was and is and will continue being a great man, you mother will keep in another level of life (like all those we have lost) that big love he gave her even in hard times. And about you, I can understand you so much, I've lived the same, but you have a great heart and will find someone special for your life. Sometimes we must let go, is just a piece of our lives to pass another level. Holding you close, even in the distance. Love my friend and never feel alone. (Me and my little pie are waiting to read that lovely poetry you write from your deep spirit ;)).
Thank you so much for your wise, kind and loving words Ana. They...and you mean so much to me.
Love,
Eric
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