Myself Again

My goal is peace of mind. Running, meditating, writing - all contribute towards this end. I love the Buddhist concpet of our original mind being like the clear, blue sky - clouds pass but the sky itself remains unencumbered by there passing. The sky never confuses itself by identifying with the clouds. Our original mind, our Buddha nature, or mind of Christ is clear and unencumbered by our thoughts. Except for one thing - we have confused our identity - we believe we are the clouds of thought instead of the clear manifestation of pure consciousness. The three tools above - running, meditating and writing help me clear the clouds for a brief (all to brief) reunion with my original self. Right now, at my desk typing, thoughts pass, words form and I reach for them with without care or attachment. I am not confused by their reality (or lack of) and I write free of the weight of worry. I just write. The words are there - and then space - and then words again. Much like meditation. Later, farther from my desk (and original mind) I bog down again in the midst of thought and cares and worries. I become these very things - or at least I believe I do. Yet the seed of identity has been planted and deep within, watered and tendered by my three main tools - the seed will bloom with the remembrence of my true nature. And I'll be myself again


Peace,
Eric