About God

About God:

occasionally, I write about God - and this is always an evolving concept, a refusal to find belief in any direction or opinion. Just my own sense of mind and heart through every moment. I'm not afraid to examine any idea that seems intriguing, nor to abandon any thought that doesn't serve. I'm not looking for proof of God's existence, there's no search for higher meaning here. It's simply entertaining ideas that linger from a history of personal belief, views from science and philosophy, and most importantly by own current point of being aware. 

with all that said; 

I don't believe in God.

but I'm also not an atheist, nor agnostic either. I'm without label and free of any need to classify myself by term or view. Honestly, I have no view of a higher power, at least not one that's lasting. What I have is a moment to moment deeply felt send of belonging. It's inclusive, at once intuitive and to counter to this as well. What I have is mystery and paradox. 

some might label this God, and at times I'm even tempted - but why bother? There's no need for anything to be more than it is right now. Whatever is found. This very moment I am a swirling spark of particles moving through an infinite space that is also of my own nature. That I am at all is a complete miracle and also quite natural. At this point nothing can be traced to first cause, no grand creator, no igniter to the spark of my existent. I simply am and my mark of consciousness is indeed a mystery. Such a long evolution from a single celled life rising from the sea to find me here. It gives me pause to consider an intelligence that is free of any holder, a randomness that's beyond any sense of mind. This isn't God, but it is the awe and wonder of our own creation. 

it's Einstein's God, and Spinoza's. And too it's just another label. The more I think of things the less I really want to hold on to any point of view or considerations. It's enough to simple be alive, thankful for all that's been give to find myself here. That through an entire cosmos and possibility of complete nothingness - I have this early light of morning, first bite of hot and bitter coffee, birds in song, and this moment to write of just a few thoughts I wish to share. 

indeed, why complicate the matter. 

things are the way they are. 

until they're other.

and through it all; I'm simply grateful. 

~

Peace, Eric