Loss Of Meaning

there's a loss of meaning - words such as allowing, forgiving, and surrender, all actions of their own without my aid or interference. These are concepts assigned to a natural order. I am not a force that allows or surrenders, there is nothing to forgive once the moment of occurrence is over. This all happens on its own and only later do I come and claim to be the one of doing. Yet still I like them as ideals, holding less meaning only diminishes my role of importance and not their own natural function. I now recognize that something is allowed by virtue of its appearance, forgiveness simply happens once the instant passes, and surrender is just this moment and the subtle nod to all that's present. The meaning is lost because I'm no longer responsible to make any of this happen, and in truth, never was at all. 

It all functions completely on its own.

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Peace,

Eric