Awakening

Awakening:

I don't have an interesting story - there's was no great awakening event, no disappearance of self and finding true enlightenment. I've never really been a seeker either, just someone who meditates and enjoys exploring the different perspectives offered by religion, philosophy, and those with an alternative point of view. If something looked interesting, I tried it, if it proved useful, it became a meaningful part of my life. Pretty simple. 

and yet there has been an awakening of sorts, a sense of ownership dropped, of no longer believing myself in charge of my own individual world. I see myself as a participant now, an aspect of life that belongs with equal grace to every other point of this belonging. Everything fits, seamless, even if I don't understand the reason why. 

what I've lost is an overwhelming interest in myself as an individual - it's been gradual, a lessening tug of my own sense personal importance. Of course there is a self, and one I care of deeply, but this self doesn't stand independent of the world. There is only this belonging. To awaken is too simply see that this is so - it doesn't (necessarily) call for any great action. 

it's simply seeing. 

for me, the blueprint has been the Headless way - Douglas Harding gave easy instructions on how to see, pointing from an object filled world back towards the spacious awareness that holds the world and every seeming object. To point is too awaken - and with this I'm given a lifetime to explore all that's found. It's a continuous awakening. 

I don't have an interesting story of my awakening, no great event to talk of - only moments filled with the grace of sure belonging. This is always present, a simple matter of notice, seeing, a finger point away. My story is always now - and so is this awakening. 

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Peace,

Eric