Not Concerned

Not Concerned: 

really, I'm not concerned about the ego, nor enlightenment, and have no interest in any sort of salvation - all of these are issues beyond my interest and control. They are thoughts that appear and lead to a fantasy outside this present moment. It's fine to speculate, to be curious what, if anything, exist as an afterlife, or if the ego has any power of it's own. But again, it's all an appearance, simply thoughts that come and go. It's what remains that has my interest.

this moment, I find myself aware, relaxed - nothing mentioned above exists right now, not even ego unless it gains attention. What I have is an easy flow of words, morning sounds, and smell of coffee,. This is all at hand, real in the sense of being present. For my needs, and even few desires, everything is met and satisfied. 

there is no need for more.

so, for now, I'm not concerned with things that call for my attention. I just allow the world to flow through this unclaimed awareness. Writing each words as it's given, unhurried, curious too as to what appears and where it all will lead to to. Why complicate things by writing about issues not of my immediate concern, giving my opinion on the belief of others? I have no true idea on matters of the ego, enlightenment seems nothing more than a concept, and salvation means little to me now. There's no reason to add my thoughts to any of this, it's all been covered ten thousand times before. 

what can't be argued of is awareness itself, the simplicity of it's allowing nature, that everything belongs exactly as the moment it appears. To make any claim on this falls directly to its hold. To be aware is without bias. Somehow, life has brought me directly to this moment, unconcerned by larger matters, aware of simple pleasures given to my morning. The world will make itself known to me in other ways today. Awareness is nothing but expansive. But right now I enjoy the quiet intimacy of not knowing anything but these early sounds, first sips of coffee, and the surprise of words. 

awareness is nothing but intimate, personal...

and always of this moment. 

~

Peace, Eric