No Promise

No Promise: 

it seems important for me to not hold even awareness as any final, permanent state, existing on it's own, separate from any other point of life. There's no promise of it's stay, no proof that it remains longer than my current conscious state. Of course it may indeed be eternal - yet I have no need to believe in it's everlasting stay, nor that it may prove to be fleeting. 

the true gift is every moment found aware.

awareness is the immediate promise of this present moment, and speculation of any further time only serves as a delusion. There's simply noway for me to know what's certain past this moment. Each instant is it's own awakening, a conspiracy of miracles to bring me to right now. To be awake isn't lasting, it's an instant renewal, a shock to find myself aware at all, and it reoccurs through every changing scene and situation. 

that I am awake, and aware is a current miracle. 

to add anything to this one moment found aware, would only be a story, it's asking more than any moment can provide. Right now is always enough, and it truly has to be as it's all I ever have. To add a story to this, no mater how deeply believed or cherished, distracts me from the simplicity of just being alive and aware, moment to every precious moment. 

this isn't to say that I disbelieve any teachers who claim to know the secrets of awareness. There are many people wiser than me, perhaps with deeper insights too. I leave every teaching to the teachers. I make no claims outside this moment. Right now...I am aware. That's enough for me to know...

and to truly cherish. 

~

Peace, Eric