No Matter the Season

No matter the season: 

solstice is over - and now winter lies ahead in its bitter entirety, a difficult season for me to face. It's the season of my surrender, a refusal to fight my way through it, no matter temperature, wind, nor dark emotions. I've let go of this seasonal battle, content to be home within myself...

whatever winter brings.

for me, it's never been seasonal depression, but a deepening of a low level melancholy that's present through the year and only happens to worsen through the darker days of winter. I realize that I've been fortunate that this is so as many friends and family members have suffered with depression, some to the point of not wishing to move from bed, struggling to grasp even the slimmest hope of light. I've been fortunate indeed, more so, even blessed as my own struggle seems to have lighted through the years for no reason other than the grace of my acceptance.  

somewhere along the line...

I just let go.

allowing myself to struggle, no longer refusing to love my sorrow, not hiding in darkness, nor even searching for the slightest glimmer of light - but simply relaxing in the presence of whatever's offered, without any need to force an internal change of scenery. 

and somehow through it all,

spring arrived.

light.

completely on its own. 

so no matter the season...I will love myself, accepting everything that's offered, even the things my heart and mind struggle to accept. I will love my resistance, recognizing the gift of self preservation. And I will love myself through darkness as well as my reach for light, no longer seeing it as a battle between two forces. 

I will simply love myself.

no matter the season.

and this makes all the difference.

~

Love, Eric

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