Without Deception

Without deception:

with honesty, always - and this is meant without deception of myself, to see clearly and hold each belief so lightly that they vanish without investment of my thoughts. To be honest is to be fearless in letting go, surrendering ideas that no longer serve, and a refusal to accept an easy theory, or cherished faith, simply for the need to know. 

truthfully, there is so little that I really know - and honesty brings only to my direct experience, a certainty of each moment alone, anything beyond this would be speculation, a theory of the unknown. I deceive myself with beliefs that lead from here, that I am anything other than what's found now, this collection of thoughts, and input from the senses. My experience is simply, and always, life itself. It's enough to have this, and more, it's infinite in the mystery that it offers. 

without deception, I am free to allow this mystery to unfold, not directed by demands, nor a wish for things to seem a certain way. It's an easy allowing of what is, life itself for its beauty and all its sorrow, nothing is now excluded. With this has come grace, a settled energy of accepting each event, as well as my reaction, as they appear. Equanimity happens completely on its own, my initial response becomes balanced through the whole. 

my honesty is without effort.

this is all how life happens, an original innocence before my thoughts are added. To be honest is to return to my own innocence, just to note my belonging to the moment and nothing more. It's about not deceiving myself with opinion even as they form, to not become invested through my own cherished form of thinking. If I'm honest with myself - every theory is let go for the reality of this moment. It's not something that I do, but only what I am. 

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Peace, Eric