Nowhere Is There A Self That Needs Improvement

for a long time and often still, I fall into the myth of self improvement, searching for the next book, technique, or activity to help me in the fine art of becoming. Certainly there are steps to take that will help physically, refining diet, and there is an importance in maintaining and aiding emotional and mental health. Yet the quest I have often found myself on is less about health of body and mind and more to the pointlessness of addressing a self that simply doesn't exist. I will not become a better, different version of this self - although, perhaps, it might appear so. What I have discovered is that seeing through the illusion of a solid, fixed entity called self, comes with a natural, spacious allowing for spontaneous change. Things get better. Things get worse. But the roller coaster of personal demands for either is diminished. It's in the aware, open space of selflessness that allows for the world to change, including the world I know as an apparent self. To this point there can be no improvement - everything is as it is, it's own perfection of broken parts and incompleteness within a seamless, whole, completion. 

In spaciousness - there's nothing to fix. 

In my personal world there's a responsibility to care for myself and others.

But nowhere is there a self that needs improvement. 

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Peace,

Eric