Of Sadhana

Of sadhana: 

the literal and classic definition of sadhana is in having a methodical, disciplined practice in order to attain specific results, usually of a spiritual nature such as transcending the ego or liberating ourselves from worldly things. detachment from the busyness of life. This has always held a certain appeal to me, committing myself fully to a spiritual pursuit and reaching the highest of all possible goals - a true and sure awakening, enlightenment itself. 

oddly, I've achieved the actual practice, 

a disciplined life that's largely dedicated to yoga and meditation. 

and yet now having no desired goal in mind. 

my practice is enough. 

it's not that my goal has changed, that I'm reaching no for something less demanding, believing that enlightenment ifs forever beyond my reach. No, it's that I'm truly happy with a practice that doesn't have to have an end result in mind, of a sadhana without any purpose other than the immediacy of the joy involved in its performance. I have no idea if there's anything to attain beyond this, a greater awakening at hand if I only practice just a bit harder, adding more difficult asanas and meditating longer. It's possible of course, many have reported such an achievement through their practice. 

for some, the goal is the entirety of their practice. 

but it seems that I lack that commitment, having long since given in to the laziness of my nature. If here's an awakening to be had, or enlightenment gained, they'll find me here, joyfully, easily, engaged in my practice without a single goal in mind. 

of my sadhana...

it's simply being alive. 

with no sense of goal or achievement.

this life is simply gifted. 

~

Peace, Eric