Small Graces

Small graces: 

so before even a single thought crosses my mind, not a word yet spoken, and the day begins in perfect trust - without any doubt at all my body knows that air is available, my heart is already beating in perfect rhythm, blood flowing in just the right direction, and the universe aligned to greet me with a sunrise. None of this is asked for and there's a purposeful  grace in their arrival. Most mornings I wake up grateful, my first spoken words are "thank you" repeated three times, and then my wish is to continue with this sense of certain grace. This is when I consciously choose to surrender, with my own sense of purpose given over to the Holy Spirit, asking to be guided throughout the day. A Course in Miracles describes this process in chapter 30, the first section on rules for decision, and it's a beautiful way to begin my mornings. 

I will be entering my 61st year in just a few days, and more so than ever now I only want my day to be guided in service to others, being truly helpful in the most meaningful way. Yes, I want my bills to be paid, food available, and even the small comforts of buying the occasional book for myself. And at this point in my life I am willing to trust that all will be cared for, keeping true to my function and placing my faith in the will of God.

 I know that I am loved beyond measure.

and I trust that small graces will be shown to me in numerous and immeasurable way - my morning begins with this prayer of surrender and I attempt to live it throughout the day. 

what would You have me do today/

where would You have me go?

what should I say, 

and to whom,? 

and so my day begins.

~

I love you, Eric

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A Trusting Prayer

A trusting prayer:

moment by every moment, a shift towards the voice for God, however slight, and with this I learn to trust in the Holy Spirit. It's not complicated, there's no real plan for learning how to surrender. Right now I don't know what anything is for, nothing in my life provides any true meaning at first glance.That's the first truth that I acknowledge - and from here's it's just a simple matter of asking to be shown the real value of whatever life delivers. So each moment is the entirety of the plan, proceeding from this initial willingness to let go of my own immediate demand to understand something, and then offering up a little prayer that I wish to be shown what this is truly for. My trust is then demonstrated through forgiveness, a practice of choosing light over what appears to be present moment darkness. 

that's it, 

the entirety of my life's plan. 

a trusting prayer.

~

I love you, Eric

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A Radical Path

A radical path:

We're asked to awaken. That's really the radical thing about A Course in Miracles, providing an actual road map to what could be called enlightenment. There are side benefits of a better life, a "happier dream" as the Course calls it - but the truth is that practicing forgiveness is as radical as Zen, maybe more so even as it becomes such a continuous practice throughout every aspect of our lives. Forgiveness is both gentle and demanding, it's healing, and yet we're asked to examine the wound to see if it's actually there. This is such an introspective path, deeply so, as eventually we look past the thought of the world all together and see only the holiest of light being present. 

that's the thing with forgiveness,

it doesn't lead anywhere.

there's no end result with its practice....only awakening. 

and that happens right now.

~

I love you, Eric

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A Gentle Path

A gentle path: 

it's endless in depth, whatever binds me to the dream is there to be forgiven, and at this point in my practice I'm committed to going as deep as needed to be free. Yet this isn't a quest, I'm no longer a seeker and there's no frantic energy to arrive anywhere - life will present me with what needs to be forgiven and I will simply proceed from there.

 it's a gentle path now. 

~

I love you, Eric

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Whatever thee Task at Hand

Whatever the task at hand: 

so my only real work here is forgiveness, everything else is simply the means to deliver me to the exact location I'm supposed to be, with just the right people, arriving at the perfect time. I'm reminded of a story that I once heard of the writer and Catholic priest Henri Nouwen who often found himself disturbed from his writing by the constant noise of students on the campus where he was living and teaching. Complaining and losing focus until he came to the realized that his actual work wasn't being interrupted at all - the interruptions were his true work, they were meant to draw him within to gently expose and deal with the issues of his mind that kept him from receiving continuous inspiration. Nouwen experienced a miracle, a shift in perception that caused him to view the situation with new vision. This is the miracle we're all tasked to perform, our true work, and the underlying reason we're here at all. 

and so for me,

I find myself ready and with sleeves metaphorically rolled up, finally ready to work with every seeming distraction and interruption, forgiving and forgiving, continuously so - 

 being joyful in the task at hand.

~

I love you, Eric

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A Quiet Fire

A quiet fire: 

to just love, no conditions needing to be met, without concern for warnings from the ego - that's the simplicity of my spiritual path. It's rather spontaneous, finding myself a bhakti yogi developed through long years of forgiveness, searching within myself for the smallest God-spark of love and fanning into an actual flame that's then extended towards others. The flame itself never wavers, but there's still sometimes a hesitation in my offer, a notion of doubt that causes me to withdraw within myself - and of course that's where the flame burns brightest now, a fire that's literally consuming all of my concerns and only wishes to continue in its spread of love. More so than ever I give myself to this fire, purifying, allowing myself to be the smallest flame within it's infinite expression. 

it's a quiet fire.

yet it burns so brightly now.

~

I love you, Eric

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I'm Sorry, and I Love You

I'm sorry, and I love you: 

I don't mind sharing my struggles, although it took a long while to be able to even share them with myself, as if admitting them would make me less spiritual than I truly hoped to be. In review, this wasn't really bypassing, it just seemed that certain issues existed on the borderland of my awareness, not quite ready to be exposed to the light of forgiveness. Of course there were many hidden emotional bombshells as well, so deeply buried that it's taken years to know be acknowledged. Even the most obvious ones are still a work in progress, not quite gone, but easily managed with forgiveness and a smile. The point is, that really, I'm a perfect A Course in Miracles student, flawed of ego, yet sincerely committed to the practice of true forgiveness - meaning that I see my light beyond the flaws, and that every deep wound carries the potential for a great healing. As I forgive everything that comes to the surface of my attention, accepting wounds and flaws for the opportunities that they are....

and so my heart break more than just a little, cracks that now expose a long hidden light that was meant for all the world, meant for specifically for you, and that we were supposed to heal together. My heart breaks in kindness and with a soft compassion that spills through the light and reaches out to you. My struggles were really yours, and I'm sorry, I just didn't know...but I do now, and I love you. 

I love you.

 may we meet again in the light of this awareness, healing together, forgiving, laughing at the thought that we could ever have ever kept this light hidden from ourselves, let alone each other. May we meet again, lovingly, so that I can say I'm sorry, I did't see your struggles,

 I didn't even see my own. 

but I love you, 

I love you,

to everyone that's encountered...

I love you.

~

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