Just a Yogi

Just a Yogi: 

so it's just a little YouTube channel, low tech with a 10+ year old phone and internet connection. But it is part of my ministry, a place for company, presence, and whatever healing we can manage. The channel's name is Just a Yogi: The Yoga of True Forgiveness and both aspects of the title are important to me - that I am just a yogi based on my sincere commitment to simply practice through the day to day struggles that tend to offer me a lifetime of distraction if I'm not not mindful. I just show up - meditation cushion, yoga mat, and for every opportunity to forgive. 

that's it...just a yogi.

as for the second part, the yoga of true forgiveness, it's based upon an after meditation vision I experienced - Krishna and Arjuna on the battlefield together, and right after the 4 paths of yoga were explained. It was here, in my vision, that Krishna, with arm across Arjuna's shoulders led him off the battlefield and whispered a final message to him on another path of yoga. A fifth yoga, but one the world wasn't quite ready for at the time. The yoga of true forgiveness. My little vision was also based upon lesson 122 of A Course in Miracles:

What could you want forgiveness cannot give? ²Do you want peace? ³Forgiveness offers it. ⁴Do you want happiness, a quiet mind, a certainty of purpose, and a sense of worth and beauty that transcends the world? ⁵Do you want care and safety, and the warmth of sure protection always? ⁶Do you want a quietness that cannot be disturbed, a gentleness that never can be hurt, a deep abiding comfort, and a rest so perfect it can never be upset?

2. All this forgiveness offers you, and more. ²It sparkles on your eyes as you awake, and gives you joy with which to meet the day. ³It soothes your forehead while you sleep, and rests upon your eyelids so you see no dreams of fear and evil, malice and attack. ⁴And when you wake again, it offers you another day of happiness and peace. ⁵All this forgiveness offers you, and more.

3. Forgiveness lets the veil be lifted up that hides the face of Christ from those who look with unforgiving eyes upon the world. ²It lets you recognize the Son of God, and clears your memory of all dead thoughts so that remembrance of your Father can arise across the threshold of your mind. ³What would you want forgiveness cannot give? ⁴What gifts but these are worthy to be sought? ⁵What fancied value, trivial effect or transient promise, never to be kept, can hold more hope than what forgiveness brings?

(ACIM, W-122.1:1–3:5)

this is yoga, it's a directive path, 

a practice.

and it truly offers everything I want. 

so my channel is just a reflection of this, a collection of videos that describe my practice, a small gathering that comes to some live streams to laugh, relax, and, hopefully, feel a little better by the time they leave. I talk about yoga. I talk about forgiveness. And when I'm very fortunate a guest joins me for a healing conversation. Most of all - my channel is a place to practice. An ashram of everyday life where forgiveness greets me as an opportunity even here. 

I'm just a yogi after all.

practicing.

~

I love you, Eric 

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Truly Helpful

Truly helpful:

thinking again of ministry and what it means to me - how it's to be applied on a much smaller, more intimate scale than previously imagined. This is a ministry of presence, of just showing up and practicing consistent courtesy, as mentioned in the original edition of A Course in Miracles. So you are my ministry, in whatever form you show yourself and however I may be called to serve. 

²I am here only to be truly helpful.
³I am here to represent Him Who sent me.
⁴I do not have to worry about what to say or what to do, because He Who sent me will direct me.
⁵I am content to be wherever He wishes, knowing He goes there with me.
⁶I will be healed as I let Him teach me to heal. (ACIM, T-2.V-A.18:2-6)

it's a ministry of surrender.

~

I love you, Eric

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Ministry

Ministry: 

after years of feeling it would be presumptuous of me to even consider the word, I've grown to love the of a ministry, embracing it not as a mere concept, but an actual lived experience of life. It's an energy really, a daily tasked performed for the loving benefits of others - quietly so. 

my ministry is simply showing up everyday.

extending love.

forgiving.

and not a single word need be spoken.

Now has our ministry begun at last, to carry round the world the joyous news that truth has no illusions, and the peace of God, through us, belongs to everyone. (ACIM, W-151.17:3)

~

I love you, Eric 

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Nothing More I Need to Know

Nothing more I need to know: 

it's okay, more so, divenly in order - it's interesting to finally begin coming to terms with myself, almost like permission to accept the flaws I've always believed were curses that held be back from being truly loved. I thought I was broken. A mistake. And my internal dialog gave me all kinds of examples. There was a time though when I was innocent of all this, unknowing of my brokeness, perfectly held in the loving mind of God. 

and then I forgot.

or really, I was convinced otherwise by a world that glady told me of my flaws. I'm not sure why I believed the world over the love I felt from God. But I did, and for the longest time too. Even now, 61 years old and a lifetime of innerwork there's still more of a hint of old beliefs that haunt my mind. It's okay, those thoughts are almost always quickly forgiven.

here's the truth,

And God thinks otherwise. (ACIM, T-23.I.2:7)

there's nothing really to add to this, 

every thought turned against myself, all the beliefs inherited by a world designed to break me from the whole, convince me that I'm small, alone, and not worthy of love...

God thinks otherwise. (ACIM, T-23.I.2:7)

and there it is,

there's nothing more I need to know.

~

I love you, Eric

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Let The Children Heal

Let the children heal:

last week, on three occasions separated by days - the phrase "let the children heal" was presented to me from two different guest on my YouTube channel and once during a healing session. I have no idea what these synchincisitic words could mean, not yet at least, but they strike me with a sense of deep importance. 

let the children heal.

what I feel is an innocence that's been scarred over, a hushed child that's been hushed to the point of quiet exhaustion and is now afraid to even softly cry out. This is one child appearing in sequence, mostly a dream figure now, too frightened to appear real. During my healing session, eyes closed and resting safely, those words "let the children heal" echoed faintly through my consciousness and seemed to find this lost and lonely child. Here is a symbol of wounded innocence appearing in many forms and various ages, from infant to adolescent, and yet all sharing the common wound. 

I have no idea how to heal them.

but I'm ready, I think....to let them speak.

finally.

and maybe others will as well, a gathering of the wounded with soft intent to heal. It feels like that's what I'm supposed to do, providing a place where every voice is heard through the pain of their loneliness and despair. I'm not asked to be a healer...

just a presence.

the word "let' is the secret code.

and I can do that.

I can let the children heal.

finally.

~

I love you, Eric

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Here I Am

Here I am:

I love how after decades with A Course in Miracles that a phrase will still find me completely new and offer another way of seeing things. Lately it's been a few phrases from the Urtext, the original edited version of the Course that seem to seek me out exactly when I need to read them. 

Here I am, Lord.

those words were given to Bill Thetford as a grounding meditation, helping to gather a wandering mind and returning it back to center. They're not really a mantra, but more of an announcement of presence, a resetting to our original availability to God. 

it's no accident that these words have found me now.

there's been many nights when the darkness has felt been more than the absence of an external light. I've wandered to some fearful places lately, alone in the wilderness of a struggling mind. And yet this short prayer reminds me that, indeed, here I am, still available to receive God's presence exactly in the midst of these wild and fearful places. They're not offered as a way out, an escape route not yet at least. For me they're a beacon symbol - I don't make my way to God.

He finds me here.

right where I am now.

always.

this is a prayer of my availability, not God's. 

and once I remind myself of that....

I'm home.

~

I love you, Eric

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Addressing the Cause, Finally

Addressing the cause, finally:

the official diagnosis is a jaw disorder, TMJ, with some underlying issues yet to be determined but more specialist will examine and give their input soon. The initial treatment is more meditation, most of which I don't think I'll use do to a host of undesired side effects - also botox, which in a few days could offer some profound relief. Ultimately there's structural damage to my jaw that's affecting my neck and throat which triggers severe anxiety and disrupted sleep. There could be other issues at play as well and, hopefully, further test will show and treatment offered. 

however, this isn't really a health update. 

I appreciate the Dr.s I've seen, not just their professionalism and skill, but their compassion as well. Much medicine has been prescribed and even more suggested. They want me to feel better, and, obviously, that's my goal too. What strikes is that every symptom has been addressed but we haven't quite touched upon the cause and how addressing that we eventually be the only real solution.

a complete life example in brief.

so I won't get into metaphysics here, no explanation of single cause and seeming infinite effects. Life draws its own metaphors in detail. I'm living with effects, rearranging them, hopeful for relief. The cause, at least for now, is largely unaddressed. 

unhealed. 

eventually, every avenue of relief pursued and found temporary - the actually cause will become the main concern. Finally. It's a process I guess, and at 61, I'm mostly tired of these long pursuits. TMJ, the structural damage, underlying throat and neck distress, anxiety - their all effects. My financial concerns, a sense of loneliness, and low grade depression. Effects. 

I'm ready for God.

love.

 

connection.

truly so.

and through forgiveness...the only cause for every effect -

has finally been addressed.

~

I love you.

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