My Return Point

My return point: 

I love meditation, it's been a steady practice for decades, leading me from  troubled mind of addiction to a truly inspired life. I've been blessed by my practice. What's been most helpful, meaningful, is the return that it offers me. Even after so many years of practice my mind will still roam from breath and mantra, a thought hooks me and I'm wandering far from my original focus. Yet I always have a place to come back to, a patient mantra or steadiness of breath that welcomes my return. 

and so my meditation continues.

forgiveness has been the same steady return point.

if I wander off into the wilds of grievance, or the pettiness of resentments - forgiveness remains as an anchor, an option of peace that never waivers. This is my off the cushion meditation, a daily affairs practice that extends mindfulness to all aspects of my life. It doesn't matter if or how far I might wander, forgiveness remains fixed in center, a steady assurance. 

my return point.

no matter where I roam.

~

I love you, Eric

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Willing to receive: 

so perhaps the word for me now isn't surrender, although it's always been a poetic choice. But lately the  descriptive term that's been playing through my mind has been - receiving. That feels more right for me, where I've been edging up to in life, that I've reached a point of willingness in which I'm ready to receive instead of force my way through the world.

it's become a gentle approach.

trusting. 

I do not know what anything is for. (ACIM, W-25)

and that lesson truly sums it up.

my certainty has lessened.

I really don't know what anything is for and I've grown tired of forcing my way through life with a swagger that only thinly disguises my uncertainty. I'm ready to let go, gently so, each moment being an easy instant of receptivity for love to make itself known.

A healed mind does not plan. ²It carries out the plans that it receives through listening to wisdom that is not its own. ³It waits until it has been taught what should be done, and then proceeds to do it. (ACIM, W-135.11:1-3)

I guess right now I've reached a point where I can easily say I'm ready for my mind to be healed. I'm willing to receive a guidance that is beyond my own limited view. Yes, receiving feels right, and that means letting go of all my previous plans and allowing the Holy Spirit to show me something new...

³What would You have me do?
⁴Where would You have me go?
⁵What would You have me say, and to whom? (ACIM, W-71.9:3-5)

I'm willing to be shown.

~

I love you, Eric 

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Capacity For Words

Capacity for words:

I'm always happy with just a few words on a page. They feel gifted, as if the quiet time that preceded them was the actual purpose of my writing. Of course this wasn't always the case, so many hours were once spent in tense anticipation of what I hoped would be meaningful words. Sometimes I was rewarded with a bit of beautiful prose, something meaningful - and just as often I left the page with a few hollow words to leave a marking of sorts. 

these mornings I just write with no clear idea of what's to come. There's no anticipation. No stress. Either there's a free flow of words or a quiet mind, and I'm absolutely happy when either occur. The truth is that writing is as much about the space between words, waiting patiently, being an empty vessel that's ready to receive whatever gift is given.

the truth is that I'm not really a writer.

I'm the capacity for words.

and that makes all the difference.

~

I love you, Eric

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Return Point

Return point: 

so now my mornings are simply the starting point of a long letting go, a conscious act to hand the entire day over to the Holy Spirit and make no more decisions on my own. How successful I am doesn't really matter, it's the intent underlying that first declaration that steadily guides me back each time I stray. These words are my return point:

³What would You have me do?
⁴Where would You have me go?
⁵What would You have me say, and to whom? (ACIM, W-71.9:3-5)

my early morning have been guided towards a softer meditation, an older practice with breath and mantra aligned. There's no control given to the breath, each one arriving and leaving in it's own given time. This feels like the first decision handed over, the most vital of life's functions, and I surrender all control. Each breath arrives and leaves entirely own, released to whatever soft guidances carries it. At some point in this current of air and the lightest weight of mantra there comes a Holy Instant. 

I am surrendered. 

completely so.

Be You in charge. For I would follow You, certain that Your direction gives me peace. (ACIM, W-361-365)

of course I don't remain here, 

but it's always present.

it's reality.

my return point.

and where the Holy Spirit gently leads me. 

~

I love you, Eric

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Uncomplicate

Uncomplicate: 

I love how life seems to uncomplicate itself, eventually at least. Being 61 years old, and with decades of practicing meditation and A Course in Miracles behind me, metaphysical ideas and seeking explanations are of less interest to me now.

kindness matters most.

forgiveness.

as does my relationship with the Holy Spirit, having an ongoing conversation where I'm asked to let one more concept go, another belief that no longer serves. My life is much simpler now, softer, with a growing sense of trust that everything will be ok. With age comes loss. There are less people in my life now, some relationships have simply drifted, death has claimed family and friends. Those who are still with me I cherish deeply in my heart. 

it's not complicated.

I love you all.

and that's the entirety of my practice.

~

I love you, Eric

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Already Arrived

Already present: 

the Holy Spirit never points to a far off  time or place of our arrival, there's no finish line to cross to signal that we've made it through to heaven - each moment is the exact and perfect location for our awakening to occur. It's all right here, heart-deep within business of life. 

that's the beauty of the atonement.

it's here.

now.

and every moment is it's arrival.

however, we are asked for a little willing to extend its invitation, forgiving each instant of an illusion that only serves to keep us hurt, lonely, and believing that we're separated from God and each other. The atonement is the undoing of that illusion, a glimpse of reality. 

it's already present.

forgiveness is our means of seeing that this holy instant.

has already arrived.

here.

now.

~

I love you, Eric

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Teachers

Teachers: 

the last two years have been a masterclass in forgiveness for me -health issues and anxiety returning, relationships shifting in their status, financial strain, and the usual list of life's demands. Forgiveness saw me through with no small amount of grace. Yet most significantly this past year brought a host of truly wonderful teachers to my small YouTube channel, as if each one was literally selected by the Holy Spirit for the exact moment of my need. 

I do not know what anything is for. (ACIM, W-25)

lesson 25 was gifted to me by such a teacher, initiated really, bringing back to he very foundation of A Course in Miracles. It's become a life mantra, an utterance not of despair, but for a brand new mindset to view whatever's at hand. 

and perfectly aligned, knowing that there are no real coincidences, today's lesson is reviewed in perfect fashion: 

Love is the way I walk in gratitude. (ACIM, W-215.1:1)

so to my teachers, each one with just the right message and again in perfect timing...

thank you, thank you, thank.

I walk in Love and gratitude for you all.

~

I love you, Eric

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