Rungs

Rungs: 

from every aspect now I wish to trust only in God, having my faith placed upon the unseen, and being sure that love alone provides the  answer to questions I no longer even need to ask. The ladder of prayer was my arrival, with so many years placed upon the first rung, pleading for things I believed would actually make me happy. The second rung was quite transformative, just the beginning step of learning to change my mind through prayer, less concerned with material thing and more emphasis on how my thoughts created the world that I experienced. With the third rung I finally felt at home, maybe without need of ever climbing any higher - it's here I learned the value of true forgiveness. 

my only need is recognizing what's real, seeing through the illusion of the world, trusting that forgiveness is my only function here and through it's practice the reality of love prevails. 

 there's one more rung of prayer to go.

another step.

and it's here I waver...

this is a final step towards heaven, it's pure communication with the Divine, with nothing left to ask for and only love received. There are moments of surrender where I feel myself lifted up to this rung without effort of my own. And I feel that this is how is should be, not hurried at all, and allowing the final step to be God's will alone. I am content to be truly helpful, a life upon the third rung of prayer, continuous forgiveness, trusting that the script is written and the final step has actually already been taken - with no ladder ever really needed.

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I love you, Eric

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Third Rung

Third rung: 

it's that third rung on the ladder of prayer, still with some hesitation, but yes, climbing towards complete surrender of my own small requests and asking only for the will of God. I love the metaphor of this ladder, a progression laid out that seems to display the entire journey through A Course in Miracles. My initial foray into the Course was seeking a better life, or at least what I believed I truly wanted. My prayers were to gain the comforts of all the things I thought would make me happy. That's the first rung of the ladder, and it's not long after that we take the second, offering prayers for others, having a heartfelt response to those who suffer. In the beginning this is still selective, giving concern only to those I felt deserving. I'm not sure how long this selective period lasted before it deepened to a more inclusive prayer. But I'm grateful that I eventually learned how to release the idea of an enemy through my practice. This is such an artful design, that I pray for my own release of guilt through seeking peace, sharing this mutual goal, and letting go of ego's exclusive nature. 

and now, 

so it seems...that third rung appears.

my prayers are naturally shifting towards surrender, asking mostly for the courage to go of fear and to place my trust in God's will. I am not firm on this rung, hesitant, fearful that the needs I have will not be met. But I'm praying, asking to gain the trust I most truly need. I feel equal in fear and faith right now, often uncomfortable, and seeking better to balance myself upon this still unstable rung. 

and yet,

there's also a great sense ease here, 

let's call it grace.

with every little letting go, surrendering doubts almost as quickly as they appear - my grip grows stronger and sure on this ladder, with a growing feel of balance on this rung, and gaining a sense of security I've never felt before. It's still a hesitant step. 

but it's been taken.

and of course...there's one more rung to go.

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I love you, Eric 

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