Trusting in a Moment

Trusting in a moment: 

so my mistake is in thinking that it's a place of ultimate arrival, a destination that I just haven't earned yet, believing that I'm not sincere enough in my practice and only have to try harder to achieve it. I've been contemplating the concept of trust a lot lately, one of the ten characteristics of God's teacher that the Manual for Teachers emphasised in A Course in Miracles. It's always felt like a bit of a sticking point for me, a checkpoint on my roadmap towards enlightenment that I never quite arrived at - while actually I've been here all along. 

the word is trust is really more of a verb, although it can also function as a noun. My thoughts have made such a beautiful fluid word a solid place of arrival. An achievement. The truth is that the entirety of my spiritual practice is trusting, it's a moment by moment matter of faith that right now, everything I need to simply graced in support of my existence. I am here, now, and my every true need is met. What I've done, quite successfully it seems, is project my fear forward to the next possible moment that doesn't even exist yet - and then wonder if this grace of support will follow. 

it's here, it always right here.

it's now.

and it's never not right now.

it's not about trust, at least not in the sense of being a noun. I'm still in verb territory,trusting, and it's becoming such a beautiful practice of continuous surrender. Each moment my needs are met, an abundance of air rest upon my lips for each breath to be drawn, an unseen atmosphere of cells, molecules, atoms and particles support my body. An entire universe participates for my existence. And all I'm asked to do is to trust this...

and so I do, 

each of these impossible moments that are somehow made possible for just an instant as my faith shows through. I'm already trusting. Completely so. 

nothing more is needed.

nowhere to go. 

I'm here.

now.

~

I love you, Eric

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