One Forgiven Moment:
last night I passed through a long stretch of anxiety that often bordered on sheer panic. This was the most severe episode in ages, it's been years since I've had a moment this bad. And here I am this morning, effects lingering, feeling trauma from an near endless night and a bit of dread for this evening when I lay my head down again for another attempt at sleep. I have a day in between the two that offers my the opportunity of forgiveness, erasing both trauma and dread through the continuous return to this present moment, lovingly, repeatedly...returning.
and that's also how I navigated last night, breathing from the diaphragm, holding a focused relaxation on the trigger area jaw and throat - and mostly just forgiving myself for the thought that this shouldn't be happening to me again. I forgave the false beliefs of cured, healed, and shouldn't and simply brought my attention back to what was happening right now. And dealt with that. Over and over again. Eventually there came a light sleep and a brand new day.
this morning I'll tend to myself, a gentle recovery,
and continue to forgive.
I have no idea what the evening holds...but I will make my way through it.
one forgiven moment at time.
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I love you, Eric
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