Great Reveal

Great reveal: 

it's not to say that self-inquiry leads us into a particular truth, or to use the term, ultimate reality, nor is the role of meditation meant to be any great reveal of who we truly are. It's all more subtle than that, more mysterious indeed, as really all we come to know is our own illusion of control, a fiction of a separate self-hood long believed to be separate from the rest of the world. Inquiry leads us to a more fluid truth of who we are, nothing declared as absolute, no answers seen with any certainty, and meditation is simply resting in the awareness of this mystery. 

after years of meditation and inquiry...

I can truly say that I know nothing as being absolute and certain.

and perhaps that's the great reveal after all.

that's the shift from seeker to explorer, subtle too in its implication, but there seems to be an energy of almost desperation to our initial seeking, a burning for answers and an ultimate truth. We're not satisfied with not knowing, demanding that our practices provide us access to secrets and unknown realities, keys to inner worlds we've long been denied. That's seeking. Intense. There's a place for it, a time, a beginning fuse for what's to come later. Or at least for some of us it seems. My own quest was never quite so demanding, not as intense, more curious by my very nature. 

my shift from seeker to explorer came pretty early on.

a great reveal that there was no ultimate answer.

and that reality was now open to explore. 

that's when inquiry and meditation most truly became interesting, letting go of demands for how my practice should unfold and accepting each moment as it came to be. I found that I was versions of truth, ultimate reality in the sense that right now is all that can experienced, and even that is inconceivable, ineffable, mysterious in its great reveal.

and that gives me cause for further exploration. 

to know myself as shifting views, temporary, aware, and all without need of declaring anything as being certain or absolute in anyway. That's the role of practice, for me at least, that it relaxes me from any demand to know or understand the world. It's a great reveal of just this moment, be it a breath or difficult yoga pose, a mantra disappearing into silence, a finger pointing to my headless wonder - there's so much to be explored without giving it a label as being either true or certain. 

it's all simply appearing. 

a great reveal of just this moment.

~

Peace, Eric