This Is My Place

This is my place: 

this is my place to share, openly and honestly with whatever thoughts and ideas I may have, as well, it's where I write what's present to me, emotionally, spiritually, any state that seems to have a certain grip on me is shared. It's not a form of therapy, although it does help to write of my dark times, having words pour out as a confession of sorts, seeking a creative outlet for things I otherwise wouldn't say. For me, it's always about art, and even as I write about depression it's shared, hopefully, as an artistic expression directly of this moment. 

this is my place to write, create, for my art to exist.

there's always a similar theme here though, a thread of mindfulness and awareness that weaves through everything I write, sometimes subtle, and more often directly to the point. It's the underlying reality of art, that it all springs from a deep awareness, consciousness, our common soul that seeks a voice for its expression. It's inescapable for me, for any artist really, yet I seem more drawn to write of it in obvious ways and that's been the nature of my work. 

this moment, for at least a few words, this is my place to write and share of depression - I find myself in dark, heavy moods, cloaked against me, unavoidable. I'm depressed, as happens on occasion. It's a similar theme as well, playing often thorough my life. Some have said I hide it well, although those closest know it's not hidden at all, with no attempt to cover it with light and keep its signs at bay. Its presence is allowed in whatever way it shows, and I make no effort to deny it, to alter its appearance, nor to shorten its stay. It's here, and I'm aware of it, accepting that for now it's in my company, a companion of a darker presence, one I should be mindful of, and that perhaps now I should offer myself some greater care, kindness, a bit of compassion towards my needs. Yes, I've been through this before, it's an aspect of my life since childhood, and only in recent years have I given it the notice to be healed. By this I don't mean to be free and rid of depression, but healing in the sense of being whole, complete by darkness and light, that both exist within the other.

so today, this is my place to heal, 

to share,

expressing what's found present at this moment,

here. 

~

Peace, Eric