What Happens

What happens: 

there seems to be quite a few terms for what happens, such as awakening, self-realization, and some may even claim enlightenment and fully fulfilled in this awareness. I have no idea about any of this and have long since abandoned any quest for certain titles or states claiming any sort of higher consciousness. Of all the terms mentioned I like awakening the best, it's more aligned to a process, not a finished nor fixed position at all. Yet in a sense even to say that I'm awakening is misleading, it's a comparison of events, saying that I've moved beyond a past belief or former state of mind. 

what happens, at least it has for me, is just a quit shift of wonder, that the present moment holds every answer ever previously searched for, and my energy is not dispersed to a wider sense of seeking. I am content in the moment and what's revealed to me right now, whatever it may be, from the grief of losing my father, to the easiness of watching squirrels playing in my yard. The world opens for my participation, no mere observer here, but a deep sense of belonging to it all, everything, whatever capture my attention is a revelation of importance. 

what happens is life, just this, a seamless inclusion to the world. 

yes, in this light it could be seen and called awakening, continuously so, life is always offering itself in new ways to be explored, and nothing is excluded. There are states of consciousness that still entice me, the ecstasy of bliss in meditation, expansion of my true connection to the world. But nothing compares to the grace and ease of simply being alive, of knowing that I belonging exactly as I am now without a single change of mind. What happens is a calm acceptance of not knowing anything as a certain truth at all, and being open to explore what every moment offers. 

it's happening right now.

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Peace, Eric