About Purpose

About purpose: 

it feels a bit odd for me to even consider writing about purpose, that after having spent much of my life doubtful that I would ever reach the point of feeling accomplished and assured of who I am, and to now believe that I  have anything of value to say on the subject - leaves me feeling slightly incongruent. 

of course that's precisely why my insights matter,

to me, at least.

here's what I know about purpose, mine - it has nothing to do with career or family, there's no grand assignment issued forth from that stars as to what I'm meant to be. I don't believe that there's a divine plan for me to follow that leads to anything of value. All of this might be true for others, and I'm filled with happiness knowing that their lives have had this meaning. Yet none of this is their real purpose, it's not the reason they're alive, as if existing to fulfill these certain goals and checkpoints of what's considered a well lived life. No, there's a singular purpose here, just one reason to exist...

for me, at least.

and that's to be alive.

really, it's that simple, my purpose so easily fulfilled. I am life, fully divine by virtue of appearance, and even if existing solely by chance the universe must have been aligned a certain way for my arrival. Any slight shift of ocean tides, or the arrangement of stars and I might not exist at all. 

about purpose, and here's what I know - 

I find no reason to be alive aside from the experience of being life itself, that my true and only purpose was immediately revealed in the exact instant of my arrival, or maybe even long before. Perhaps my only real purpose is to be astonished by existence, all of it, every aspect that conspires for me to be alive, aware, and able to give such deep appreciate that it's so. I see that done of this is based on accomplishment, there was no effort involved for this achievement, not from me. I'm a product of some continuous purpose of the universe at large, meaningful by virtue of grace and appearance. 

divine by my very nature. 

that's all the assurance that I need.

~

Peace, Eric