Continuously Grateful

Continuously grateful:

continuously grateful, finding it now to be the actual rhythm of breath and heartbeat, that my every function is at ease within a natural flow of energy that happens completely on its own. My impulse is to work with this order, providing nutrients and motion for my body, inspiration for the mind, and company for soul. I am continuously grateful just to be alive, participating with life on its own terms without need nor wish to manipulate events for my concerns and demands on how things should be. Yes, I certainly still have a preference as to how my life unfolds, and every emotion is still displayed for its occasion - yet nothing has to meet my expectations, life is free to flow exactly as it will, and of course as it always has.

 But now, continuously grateful, I am equally free within its flow.

it's how life is, seeming to be a process that carries me from events to another situation, and yet the mistake with this is the thought that I am somehow apart from it all, helpless in life's current, and that it all somehow happens to me, against my own will and self interest at times. To be free though, is to awaken not just as the current, but as the stream too, being life itself, not subject to events but the process of all that's ever happening. There is no me outside of these events, every situation is my own appearance no matter how distressing in its guise. 

and for this too, I am continuously grateful.

this is how I find myself now, somehow awake to this participation, aware of my belonging to every aspect of the world. It's nowhere near a special state of privilege, everything is just as before, with perhaps a deeper understanding to my shifting moods and personality. What I am is alive, and simply thankful, continuously, that it's so. 

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Peace, Eric