I'm Sorry, and I Love You

I'm sorry, and I love you: 

I don't mind sharing my struggles, although it took a long while to be able to even share them with myself, as if admitting them would make me less spiritual than I truly hoped to be. In review, this wasn't really bypassing, it just seemed that certain issues existed on the borderland of my awareness, not quite ready to be exposed to the light of forgiveness. Of course there were many hidden emotional bombshells as well, so deeply buried that it's taken years to know be acknowledged. Even the most obvious ones are still a work in progress, not quite gone, but easily managed with forgiveness and a smile. The point is, that really, I'm a perfect A Course in Miracles student, flawed of ego, yet sincerely committed to the practice of true forgiveness - meaning that I see my light beyond the flaws, and that every deep wound carries the potential for a great healing. As I forgive everything that comes to the surface of my attention, accepting wounds and flaws for the opportunities that they are....

and so my heart break more than just a little, cracks that now expose a long hidden light that was meant for all the world, meant for specifically for you, and that we were supposed to heal together. My heart breaks in kindness and with a soft compassion that spills through the light and reaches out to you. My struggles were really yours, and I'm sorry, I just didn't know...but I do now, and I love you. 

I love you.

 may we meet again in the light of this awareness, healing together, forgiving, laughing at the thought that we could ever have ever kept this light hidden from ourselves, let alone each other. May we meet again, lovingly, so that I can say I'm sorry, I did't see your struggles,

 I didn't even see my own. 

but I love you, 

I love you,

to everyone that's encountered...

I love you.

~

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As to Understand

As to understand: 

imagine this, just a wish to understand others more than our own desire to explain ourselves, surrendering our need to be right in order to simply be kind. That's the possibility that this particular line represents, asking that we not so much seek to be understood as to understand. Yes, a tall order indeed, but this is a prayer that humbles, making these words truly a living energy that work their magic through us. Of course this doesn't mean that we don't have our own convictions, or that we abandon our own beliefs for the sake of someone else's understanding.

we only ask for the ability to listen,

fully and deeply so.

allowing others to be heard. 

in order to understand anyone our minds must be open, we should be able to offer a giving space of heart-centered compassion where others can be understood. It's a true gift, pure, and it can only be offered when we let go of our own insistent need to always be certain in our view. Again this shouldn't imply that our opinions aren't valid, only that for a moment, briefly even, we just let them be and offer ourselves as a listening place. This is where transformation happens, friendships occur, and long held resentments begin to disappear. It's magical, truly so, based entirely on a single line of kindness...

may I seek less to be understood,

as to understand.

if only for a moment.

~

Love, Eric

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Does God Have a Hero?

Does God Have a Hero? 

over 25 years ago I wrote a little handbook for myself. I titled the book Does God Have a Hero? and it was meant to be a guide for the upcoming years of sobriety, a decade of heavy drinking fresh behind me, and I was ready for some guidance greater than my own. For me, the title signified a life of service and forgiveness, after sitting in meditation one morning, feeling lost and unsure of direction - I asked God for my path to be revealed and the answer received was an intuitive poem.

does god have a hero?

soon after a series of essays followed, one for each stanza, and indeed, it felt like a guidebook for me, a clear direction with my new gift of sobriety. My talk of God and guidance shouldn't be confused with any religious views or sense, this wasn't channeled material from a higher realm or spirit-guide. It was just compassionate common sense from a part of me that had been long blocked off through fearful living. It was, and still is, the voice of God through my own best understanding. 

it was heart speaking directly to me.

and I was finally ready to listen.

in a sales sense, the book didn't do so well, published through one of the first print on demand houses, and with no funds for promotion, only a few people have ever read it. Yet it's my book, inspired, and it's message has been well lived by me. Not always successfully so, but the effort was always there to live by the loving guidelines provided. 

so does God have a hero?

I don't know. 

but I live my life as if it's so, 

compassionately, with deep care for others, practicing forgiveness. 

and that's enough for me,

even after 25 years.

~

Peace, Eric 

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