Meant to Be

Meant to be: 

it's been well over twelve years since I've changed my diet, a few weeks of easing into the inevitable idea that I was meant to be a vegan. I think the previous decade and a half of having a committed meditation practice probably helped steered me in this direction, perhaps it softened and expanded my heart to the point of near breaking if it felt that I would continue to contribute to the cruelty of animals any longer. I know that since I began meditating many previous habits that no longer served me were simply left behind, no fuss or hand wringing, they just weren't important any more and I easily walked away. This included an equally committed drinking practice of over a decade and a half as well. 

as if I were meant to be sober.

causation is not always readily determined by mere observation, and so for me to say that I was meant to be vegan, sober, or any of the infinite things that I've become is decidedly difficult to prove. Most especially to make the claim that meditation is the catalyst for all the good that's happened. It's a murky idea scientifically. 

and yet....

my life changed through the practice of meditation. 

everything. 

as if I were meant to be more caring, compassionate, concerned for the well-being of others. It doesn't feel so much that I followed some divine plan that led me here, really no plan or direction at all, more spontaneous than that, shifting, as if my life were swayed by an unseen breeze of subtle inspiration, ideas left within its wake that urge me ever on. It seems that I was meant to be exactly who I am right now and the proof is everything that's ever happened through a lifetime of cause and response and it's continuous effect. That's how life happens, it's never static, always, always motion, fluid, seamless - and we are continuously in some process of becoming of becoming...something...if only briefly through the course of time. 

as if we're meant to be...

infinite by design.

meditation is simply part of this, an inevitable idea, spontaneously happening now.

~

Peace, Eric