Specialness

Specialness: 

 it's a sense that I've been set apart from God in some unbelievable way that keeps me in a world of suffering, that I am somehow separate from the source of all creation. Special. And of course we all feel this specianess too, a unique body that stands above or below others in an endless scale of contrast and comparison. Perhaps most insidious of all, how my suffering keeps me in a world of my own, separate from you, a private sorrow no one else will ever really understand. 

A Course in Miracles tells us that this is all a substitute for God's love. Yes, even, or maybe especially, our suffering. Our addiction to specialness is a plight that keeps us truly alone, pitted against each other in the belief that no one really understands us, or knows our special sorrow. We all suffering in the absence of love, no one more so than any other, equal in pain and loneliness. The very thing that should join us in healing is just another belief that keeps us apart. You loneliness should call to me, breakthrough any barriers between us. But lost in my own specialness, the cherished belief that I suffer alone, your voice is lost to me, unheard, or worse, ignored. 

I'm sorry.

and that's the real breakthrough.

finally.

yet my specialness has worn thin -I hear your faint cries above my own, and those barriers between us don't seem so impenderable anymore. I'm sorry that I didn't hear you sooner. But I do now. And what I hear is your truest voice, faint, yet reaching me in greater strength as I begin to tune in. We are not special in our aloneness. That's what your your voice tells me. I know this for certain, because astonishingly enough, your truest voice is my own, not special at all, one voice in an infinite song of God.

I hear you.

finally.

and thank you.

may we continue now in song.

~

I love you, Eric

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