Edge of Fear

Edge of fear: 

what I've long wanted to do was live a simple life of creativity, writing and sharing, and above all else demonstrating the principles that I've held so dear. My challenge has been the possibility of earning an income through creative means, ultimately trusting that indeed, God alone is the source and I only have to stay true to the message of forgiveness and love. I am not there yet, not in income, nor faith - trusting in the infinite generosity of the universe has often placed me on the edge of fear. This year has taught be the art of letting go, almost continuously so it seems. I've been stripped of much that I've long cherished, finding myself precariously dangling on that edge. 

and yet, here I am. 

my plan is to keep showing up until I can no longer do so, or that I am eventually called to offer a different means of my creativity. So is it really a gamble when all I've been asked to do is demonstrate love, kindness, and continuous forgiveness? Sometimes it still seems so, my faith hasn't quite backed me away from that fearful edge. But I'm willing to stand here a little while longer, swaying on that edge, afraid, and yet trusting too that perhaps....

this is where I learn to fly.

~

I love you, Eric

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Laws

Laws: 

truly, I am under no laws but God's, and yet I live my life in a very ordinary fashion, recognizing that this world has a certain order that I must follow. It's the interior light that guides me however, unwavering in it's quality, always illuminating my path ahead. I am in an illusory world, real in a very physical sense and honored for the lessons that it offers. But reality offers only God's law, singular in it's devotion to love, light, and forgiveness. 

I am under no laws but God's.

 and happily so.

~

I love you, Eric 

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My Reminder

My reminder: 

and I was asked to consider my own innocence, that there was a hidden quality of my true nature that was not just long ignored, but was actually beyond my present state of comprehension. Perhaps that was my first confrontation with A Course in Miracles and it felt almost like a blunt object of defiance to every self-belief that I held about myself. I certainly didn't feel innocent. Yet all the Course ever asks for is just a little willing to consider that this might be so, to investigate through those gentle considerations that it offers. The only real confrontation here was my own self doubt. Happily, I have touched upon an inner truth that shines bright beyond those dark beliefs. 

I've returned to innocence.

repeatedly...as it's still so often forgotten.

of course this little willing extends now to you.

to everyone.

I am asked to consider the innocence of each person I encounter, challenging my ego's initial consideration with a deeper and sustained investigation. That's the nature of true forgiveness, zen like in it's inquiry, a contemplation of what's shared between us.

that's how I remember my innocence.

you,

are my reminder.

~

I love you, Eric

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Here I am

Here I am: 

there is a prayer given by Jesus to Bill Thetford, the co-scribe of A Course in Miracles, meant for his personal use. It's not found in my own treasured and tattered edition of the Course, but I have recently come across it and love this new discovery. 

here I am Lord.

these words feel like a stance to me, powerful, an announced meditation that I am fully available, right now, to the presence of God. This is a prayer I can carry in my heart, a mindfulness practice of consistently placing myself in God's moment. 

here I am Lord.

and this is exactly where God meets me.

~

I love you, Eric 

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Only Our Innocence Shown

Only our innocence shown: 

looking more readily towards the Holy Spirit now, the very symbol of kindness and unconditional love residing within my mind -and from this view it's the struggle of others, from everyone I meet really, that breaks my heart wide open. My own struggles often equals theirs, our suffering is matched in similar loss, we share the same sorrow of our mistaken beliefs of shame and grievances long held. But the Holy Spirit doesn't see any of this, there's no recognition of brokenness or sorrow - only our innocence and wholeness is seen through these loving eyes. This seems to be the gift of duality, the contrast what ego shows and my choice to see the reality of love. It's not bypassing, but a workable solution to life. 

my heart breaks open for light to be shown.

and it's this I wish to give the world.

~

I love you, Eric 

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No Idle Thoughts

No idle thoughts: 

a powerful sentence from chapter two of A Course in Miracles tells us that "there are no idle thoughts" and then follows with the notion that all thoughts produce form on some level. And there's the answer for the world we see, or more aptly and importantly - the one that we created. So really, this is a course in responsibility. But it should be a joyful one. Our role, today, is to recreate our world, mindfully so now, and without self-recrimination. One thought, simply recognized as fear, and then given over to a gentle smile of awareness - and then choose a thought of love.

that's it.

and so the world begins to change. 

~

I love you, Eric

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Fulfillment

Fulfillment: 

I've always liked the principle of manifesting, first coming across it many years ago through some authors that might be considered "New Age" in their beliefs, and it immediately appealed to me as an almost magical way of fulfilling my desire. My yoga studies at the time explained it in way that seemed to make the most sense, that it's simply a matter of entering an intent, a sankalpa, into the infinite field of pure consciousness and allowing it to align with the potentiality of it's fulfillment. Magical, yes, but also based up sound principles of yogic knowledge. And it worked, right circumstances always seemed to reveal themselves for me to trust the process, patiently detached as the universe cooperated with my intentions and brought my desire to its fruition. 

and yet, there was never fulfillment, or not completely so, as the next desire almost always emerged soon after the first appeared. An endless cycle of desire. Deepak Chopra coined the term "spontaneous fulfillment of desire" and it urges us to follow the synchronicities that naturally appear through the mind that grows quiet with the practice of meditation. Again, into that vast still of consciousness we enter a more general intent of trust, having the good faith that the universe knows exactly what we need for our every need to be met. This has been my practice for many years, it appeals to my growing sense of trust that I am part of an infinite Source that loving guides me on my way through life. 

but even this practice now feels a bit incomplete, as if I am not ultimately trusting that God alone will meet my every need if I just surrender to His love. This is where my long practice of A Course in miracles has led me, that ultimate surrender, complete faith that I am cared for through the love of God. I'll be honest, I'm not quite there yet, close, being on the precipice of this surrender. What I've found, as I'm balancing here on the edge of faith - is that this is now my only true desire, allowing God to be the one fulfillment that has need for another to arise. It's the end of the cycle of desire. Or close to it for me. So as the Course offers in lesson 242:

And so we give today to You. ²We come with wholly open minds. ³We do not ask for anything that we may think we want. ⁴Give us what You would have received by us. ⁵You know all our desires and our wants. ⁶And You will give us everything we need in helping us to find the way to You. (ACIM, W-242.2:1-6)

yes, I'm still on the precipice...

but closer now to finally letting go.

~

I love you, Eric

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