Quietly Awakening

Quietly awakening: 

quietly awakening, that's how life seems to me, that I'm aware, and everything belongs just as it is right now, perfect in its way, even if I don't fully understand why this is so. There's little need for me to control how life unfolds, not that I ever could, but there was always a strong desire to make things happen in way that fit my every demand - and of course I was mostly unsuccessful in this regard. What I see now is that life doesn't really have an agenda, not personally at least, and that even free will is a spontaneous appearance and will only carry me so far. 

there is no real choice in this awakening. 

life simply happens on its own.

this isn't a cause to debate free will, or if we capable of any amount of control through life. It certainly seems we are, choices are made and then life unfolds in the direction that we hope for. Yet ultimately, the basis of our choice is a mystery, there is no real reason that we desire what we do. It's just how things are, ideas spontaneously appearing, and then we claim the inspiration as our own. 

for me, quietly awakening, it's being aware that this is so.

and allowing life to simply, easily, 

unfold. 

complete on its own.

it's probably different for you, a large part of my surrender is less need to even form a view on matters such as these, what might be consider spiritual issues, or the qualities of awakening. The wish to argue seldom ever appears, but it might, life shows itself through mystery and everything remains a sudden possibility. For now, life is pretty quiet, edges soft, and I find myself fully immersed within a continuous flow of inspiration, urging for expression. 

and this is what I write of...

quietly awakening. 

~

Peace, Eric