Truly Generous

Truly generous: 

that we live in a truly generous world, or really, it's the entire universe that gives of itself and we have the world to show for it - but this isn't meant as a New Age trope of all of existence being here to support us, or reality lending itself to grant our every wish and dream. I'm speaking more of the science of giving, the inherent spirit of generosity that underlies the universal actions of planets and stars, our own sun and moon and the quality of life they offer, all the way down to particles and the atomic structure they perform. It seems to me that there's an intent for life, intelligence being creative in its display, and that it's an ongoing process, evolving through the course of time. 

a truly generous universe...

being aware of its own giving. 

this can be difficult to express, with words taking on the particular flavor of our beliefs, and when a generous, creative intelligence is mentioned it's quickly associated with a vision of God, either negative in regard to some scientific discussions or the theology that we've been given through countless years of unquestioned faith. Words take on the context of our frame of mind, it's natural, and to use terms such as generosity of spirit, or creative universe immediately cause a sense of separation, that it's implied as an outside force of intelligence, something other than what naturally occurs. 

yet really, it's simply what we are. 

if we are creative, self-aware, intelligent, than so too the universe. 

there is no degree of separation. 

and, so yes, we live in a truly generous universe, infinitely creative, one that gives freely of itself for the sake of life to thrive. The sun and moon are set in perfect distance from earth, the atmosphere consisting of just the right gases for our protection and ability to draw breath, particles vibrating an attraction for the world to form - and all of this takes place with grace and ease, nothing is demanded from us for any of this to be. It simply happens on its own. 

truly generous. 

and I'm grateful that it's so. 

~

Peace, Eric 

Deep and Quiet Joy

Deep and quiet joy: 

for me, meditation and inquiry aren't tools to reach a certain spiritual view, or a means of achieving a specific state of mind, really they're not tools at all but different modes of my creative expression. Meditation is how I join the morning and my closing point to the day, bookends of my surrender, a softening to any edge that seems to appear between myself and the world. My mantra is a vehicle that carries me to this surrender, an easy grace that vibrates through my mind, a frequency of a quiet way of being. This is something that I love, a simple ritual of my day, and doesn't have to be the cause of any great awakening...it's enough in the deep and quiet joy that it offers to me. 

it's just something that I love to do.

of really, I should say happen, as both meditation and inquiry are an urge of surrender, not something that I do at all, but more of a request that I simply follow. Inquiry is spontaneous for me now, happening at odd moments through the day, a sudden point of complete surrender and exploration of the seamless reality that presents itself to me. It's my invitation to know myself directly as the moment, how everything is occurring as a single flow of motion, energy in different modes of this unique and only once appearing expression. Inquiry offers me another flavor of this deep and quiet joy, one of recognition, more active than my silent meditation, showing me that I too am the motion of the world, an integral part of this creative energy, always shifting in appearance. 

inquiry shows me what I truly am...

through any moment of the day. 

yet none of this is the cause for my deep and quiet joy, meditation and inquiry are simply revelations to what's always present, just another point of reference in the creative flow of my existence. It's what I'm asked to do and not for any reason or purpose...

but only as something that I love to do. 

~

Peace, Eric 

Seamlessness: 

it occurs to me that perhaps there should a branch of science that's devoted purely to the study of seamlessness, how everything is interdependent upon the existence of something else, entwined, and how one aspect of science really can't be studied by itself, but always included as the whole. It's taking a seamless view of the universe and studying it's relations. As well as specializing in a particular branch, a scientist would be trained in this inclusion, knowing that there's really no objectivity involved, that they belong fully to the subject of their study. This would involve learning to meditate, methods of self-inquiring and deep contemplation. A scientist would know and understand that they belong within the whole area of their study, life, consciousness, the universe at large.

all being really, just one thing. 

seamlessness.

this thought came to me as I was reading about the noosphere, particularly as expressed by French scientist/philosopher/and Jesuit priest Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, that there is a realm of consciousness that exist in a similar way as the atmosphere or biosphere, and that it leads us towards ever greater leaps of complexity and evolution. It's a controversial thought, dismissed by many scientist and embraced by those who think outside the box of their scientific studies. I am partial to this view, at least so in my limited understanding, but still see it as means of separation, a realm that is somehow, however slightly noted, removed from inclusion of the whole. 

what I see is that the noosphere is simply consciousness expressed as evolution, an aspect of a single sphere of influence in relation to the whole universe, how the biosphere can only exist in relation to the atmosphere, the seamlessness of its true display. This was Nagarjuna's view, seeing emptiness as an inherent truth of all phenomenon, nothing really existing without the influence of something other. So all science is simply the study of ourselves, every branch is really the seamlessness of spheres, emptiness in relation to appearance and how it all continues on. 

an endless influence...

seamlessness displayed. 

~

Peace, Eric 

A Very Real and True Sense

A very real and true sense: 

recently I've developed a deep interest in cosmology, the science of the origin of the universe as well as its structure and how it has evolved. More so, there's a fascination of cultural views of this origin, how the universe came to be as told by religion and indigenous beliefs. It's interesting to note the diversity of these stories, how they reflect each unique culture, and just as amazing is to see the connections shared across such a wide spectrum of history and landscape, how similar some of these stories are in their recount of the origin of the universe and their personal world. In a very real and true sense - we all have our own unique cosmology, the beginning of our cosmic story, a Big Bang of consciousness and the vital realization that we exist...and are aware that this is so. 

in a very real and true sense - it's the universe awakening as ourselves.

each moment is a Big Bang of significance for us, an entire universe is shifted to our view, never quite seen this way again, always in motion, and even as this world is briefly noted it is already in the process of both destruction and becoming, a Shiva moment that bears our witness. Cosmology is an active story, it tells how the universe is expanding, awakening to itself, and it includes our individual stories as well, how we're part of the great awakening, aspects of consciousness by design and function. 

for me, this negates the hard problem of consciousness, if it's innate in the fabric and structure of the universe, or some happy accident of evolution, a chemical and biological function found in the arrangement of only certain points of matter. Either way, I'm alive, a universe of cells, molecules, atoms, and particles vibrating an urgency of existence, life, awake to itself and able to discern such vital information. 

in a very real and true sense - each moment is my origin story, a cosmology of deep importance. It's the universe awakening to itself, and in the very same instance being expressed uniquely as my potential, an ongoing story of this aliveness, aware, vital in my presence here. 

no less than the universe itself...

awakening. 

~

Peace, Eric 

Everything I Write

Everything I write: 

only to note that everything I write will probably, eventually, be contradicted in another day of writing. It's just the way things are, creatively, for me at least. I'm not interested in spiritual ideals, nor anything that needs to meet a certain standard of community proof - even the science that's occasionally mentioned here is simply a matter of convenience for me, a subject for a story, fiction really, lyrical prose. Something that has worth for me as beauty.   

nothing more. 

in this way, I guess I am a seeker after all, always a pursuit of beauty, searching for that one line that uncovers an underlying sense of grace, connection, and possibilities. Or perhaps seeker isn't exactly right after all, more to the point it's a revelation, that beauty is inherent through every description of the world and it's simply a wait for the proper words to find me. 

everything I write is in hope that beauty will be reveled.

even if only by single line.

and it's all fiction, again even the science that I write of is just a story, presented with facts, yes, but truthfully it all remains a mystery, an interpretation of the universe in way we understand. Yet it's an incomplete story, never quite able to capture the entirety of the whole. Science is an impossible task, as is philosophy, and every religion as well. But science embraces this truth, uses it to continue adding chapters to its story, realizing that mystery reveals itself through the action of pursuit, asking the right questions, experimenting, having a willingness to fail and be proven wrong. 

it makes the story interesting. 

for me, I'm not a scientist, but I am my own kind of storyteller, lyrically so, poetry in a sense - everything I write about is the story of this moment, temporary and brief, a glimpse of reality, but no more. Just a glimpse. More importantly, it's my glimpse, my own view within reality and doesn't have to be proven true to anyone, not even to myself as confirmation of experience is always subjective, although in a certain sense it's often shared, it still belongs to each of us alone. 

we all tell our own stories.

and this is just one of mine. 

~

Peace, Eric 

Hum of Pure Existence

Hum of pure existence: 

there's a deep sound to the universe, what scientist now are detecting as a hum, a vibration rich in tone and subtle textures. This is the frequency of creation, every present, being the background hum of pure existence itself. This isn't a sound that's carried to us on waves we're most familiar with, it's not the conversation tones we hear on a daily basis, nor even a type of white-noise we've come to ignore through its constant play. It's the sound of being alive, our own primordial vibration.

it's the hum of pure existence. 

these sounds, deep from the source of creation, are carried to us on gravitational waves, an entirely different way of hearing, more akin to a touch really, the whole universe responds in certain resonance, vibrating along in a chorus of continuous creativity and being. Scientist have actually recorded this, those resonating sounds of the Big Bang, the birth of our existence. It's amazing to consider that we can actually hear our own creation taking place, the creativity of the universe itself emitting a specific tone and that somehow right now our bodies respond, resonating, offering their own frequency to join this chorus of cosmic sound. 

we too are part of this great hum of pure existence. 

the rishi's, seers and shamans of long ago heard this sound as well, detecting this as the underlying Om of our primordial nature, noting it's resonance throughout creation, listening as the entire universe played along, vibrating in a beautiful song of creativity and being. They offered us mantras of specific participation, our own creative sounds to play along, purposely joining to this chorus. It's really all one great primordial song, existence, active, dynamic, gravitational waves pulling to our souls, urging us to dance, vibrating to the continuous hum of pure existence. 

and we respond....

dancing, singing, vibrating. 

life. 

~

Peace, Eric  

My Own Cosmology

My own cosmology: 

exploring my own cosmology, how thoughts appear through a quiet field of consciousness, a sense of self-identity forms within the mind, and somehow too that it's all let go, and there's simply presence here, spacious and aware. That's the science and joy of meditation, for me at least, an endeavor of deep, relaxed observation until even the witness dissolves into this silence. I liken this to cosmology, a personal universe of my own sense of beingness to explore. 

yet really this isn't an active exploration, there's no seeking involved, no active search for any answers. It's too relaxed and quiet for this to be so, passive in its engagement with the mind. The universe is already present here, immediate, waiting to be acknowledge and unfold with information. Meditation is just the means of watching myself recognize this revelation, seeing my true relationship with a larger world, and allowing it all to simply appear without the labels of my involvement. It's a personal universe, my own cosmology explored, and yet once revealed as so, no sense of personal identity remains. 

just the universe at large...

my own cosmology.

aware. 

~

so the above isn't meant to be anything other than a lyrical description of meditation, it's not a teaching, nor a pointer designed to gain a sense of awakening. I have no interest in the debate over meditations worth for enlightenment, honestly, I care very little for the pursuit of enlightenment at all. I love the present moment, whatever it is that's appearing right now, how everything had to be just so for this exact instant to arrive, as if the entire universe conspired through infinite, seamless events for this moment to appear. Meditation is one such instance, as is my time writing, and the urge for another sip of coffee. It's that simple...

whatever it is, 

is my own cosmology.

~

Peace, Eric